is the reason I haven't posted in a while. I never thought I'd be addicted to a first person shooter game, but mindlessly shooting zombies in the head is SO. MUCH. FUN. Drew and I have been playing it non-stop on the weekends, it's our alternative to sex. If we lived together and I had an accessible Xbox at all times, I'd probably figure out a way to play Left 4 Dead for money and just drop out of school.

Thanksgiving was good. I always look forward to seeing all my family, especially my niece. She's 4 and addicted to Tic Tac Toe. Lucian mentioned something about visiting him over break in New York, and he got me luggage as a Xmas present. Last time he did that I went up there, and if he asks me to go he'll most likely invite Drew. They are abnormally interested in him (marriage and children questions, WTF?) and they even got him a Xmas present! I'm probably getting my hopes up, but I don't care I really want to go on a vacation with Drew goddammit.

I pretty much gave up on school. And ironically I've been getting A's on everything (KNOCK ON WOOD! KNOCK ON WOOD!). My coding class just makes me want to crawl up into a meat grinder and wait for my body to be made into sausage. This semester thankfully went by way too fast. Maybe because I constantly had 20 million things going on at once.

Also everyone reading this needs to come to my birthday party on January 9th. That's one month and like 7 days away, SO CLEAR YOUR FUCKING CALENDARS, DRINKS AND AWKWARD SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS WILL BE GOING DOWN.

Suzette and I were talking about if we would love our boyfriends still if they were horribly deformed. That I am unsure of, not because I am shallow, but because I do not like the feeling of rough burnt skin on my face. What I am sure of though is that if I do ever become horrible deformed (horribly as in hideous) I have decided that I will blow off my fucking face.

This is in no way encouraging (or saying that) deformed people should kill themselves. I just would not have the ability to love myself if I were deformed. If you can, that's amazing.

But I would blow off my face...or whatever is left of it.

So the campaign and election is over, it's back to school work and filling the void with shopping. I am not entering a store for a while. I can't contain myself. I love winter clothes and I want all of it while I can still wear it.

I really miss campaigning. I'm not sure what to do with myself without directions being yelled at me through megaphone, but I'm working through it. If you have a facebook and haven't seen my celebration video [http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=49792642164&subj=5140356] you'll understand why the payoff is so amazing and addictive. I feel like I was just starting to get to know everyone and now I never see them. I see them at parties, but it's not the same as working together.

I hope it is cold every day forever so I can wear all my cute Winter things forever.

Someone throw money at me.

I'm excited for Thanksgiving. I'm trying to talk Drew into going with my family and I to our Thanksgiving (if Amigos isn't opened that day). I think we have been going out long enough to start spending holidays with each other's families. And by that I mean him coming to spend all the holidays with me.

Election day is over, and the payoff feels amazing. Not only did I get to witness a huge historical moment, but I helped make it happen. Knights 4 Change turned Orange County blue, turned Florida blue, turned AMERICA BLUE. Last night could not have been more rewarding. Standing on my feet and not sleeping for a week straight, harassing people, knocking on doors, and making phone calls all paid off. I couldn't have asked for more amazing people to be around last night. It was madness when we found out the results. There was jumping, chanting, crying. I can't even begin to describe how it felt to be around other people that worked so hard for something we all care about so much and to get what we wanted. These people became like family so fast, I'm horribly sad it is over but I couldn't be happier either. I FINALLY LIVE IN A BLUE STATE!!!!

I wish I had a better picture of myself to show my emotion last night:

This me with like 5 hours of sleep in two days, and extremely happy. No drugs.




The Asians were quarantined for loving freedom too much. Note: Only three of us are Asian.

I'm finally proud to be an American. I can't imagine how people spent so much time on the campaign, I am already behind in school. But when I look back on this I want to say "I helped elect the first black president," not "I aced my test."

OBAMA '08! I AM PART OF SOMETHING GREAT!
My president is Barack Obama! Knights want change, and we freakin' got it.

P.S. WILL SOMEONE PLEASE DEFINE THE WORD SOCIALISM TO THE REPUBLICAN PARTY?

Fat chicks in fishnets.
It's like pushing dough through a strainer.

I don't know what food or sleep is anymore.
This is the best diet ever.

The past few days have been fantastic. I've been outside yelling at people/getting yelled at while volunteering. I went to the Obama Rally last night. I drove at like 6 and waited 5 hours. If I went with the democrat club at school I could have gotten VIP passes and shook Obama's hand, but my friend figured we should drive early. DAMN. I'm regretting that so hard.

I know I'm one of the people at the Student Union that everyone hates and tries to avoid, but I really enjoy it. lol. I haven't been involved in anything like this since drama club in high school. I forgot how good it feels to be with a bunch of people that are all working for something they care about. I'm super nervous and excited for Tuesday. I haven't been this excited in a really long time. I can't shut up about it...obviously. I even put Obama before Drew, on myspace and for lunch.

I thought it was going to be lame, because I was the only person I know volunteering, but I've made like 50 new friends already, it's almost like an extended family. Which is really good, because I need more friends and new people to be around. I almost wish it wouldn't end so soon, but if it didn't I'd probably die of heart attack. It feels good to be doing something I really care about, after the election I'm definitely getting involved in more volunteer work at school.

SO STOKED.

I am going to type SNEEZE for every time I actually sneeze during this entry. I've already missed like 25.

Volunteering was fun today. Some people can be really mean, this one fat man told me to STFU. WHO TELLS A SMALL ASIAN GIRL TO STFU? And I got ignored a lot, but that's not what counts. What counts is that I got like 15 people to get in the vans to vote. I got hit on way too much, so I wish Drew was volunteering with me. SNEEZE. Who knew that voting was the place people go to try to pick up girls?

What should I do for Halloween?! Or what should I be?! Tell me if you guys know of anything cool that is not downtown, because I don't want to waste 2 hours of my Halloween in traffic.

Someone take away my sickness, it's obnoxious.
SNEEZESNEEZESNEEZESNEEZESNEEZE

God, if you are real you will cure me right NOW.
What? No? Dammit.

So this cold (hopefully that's ALL it will be) just hit me all of a sudden like a raging moose on cocaine running away from Sarah Palin. It's a horrible time for me to be sick, because I was planning on volunteering to get people to vote all week. I'm still going to do it, because I'd rather feel good mentally. Obama and Bill Clinton are rallying in Orlando on Wednesday. The time and location are TBA. I am going to go in Tuesday to do my lab early so I can go. I knew he'd come back...for me.

I just peeled a pomegranate. I bet it is easier to slaughter a chicken. I am going to eat this until I feel better, and get so much antioxidants that I freakin' fly.

Pew pew. It's one of these things.

Where​ is the perso​n you like right​ now?
At work, and he's going to come home and watch Desperate Housewives with me.

Have you ever stepp​ed on a strai​ghten​er?​
No.

How do you feel about​ the perso​n who texte​d you last?​
I feel good.

Have you ever been aroun​d someo​ne who was high?​
Yes, a lot.

Do you like your life as of now?
Yeah, I wish I wasn't sick though.

Know anyon​e that'​s pregn​ant?​
Hope not.

How old are you right​ now?
20

What color​ are your eyes?​
Brown

Have you ever told someo​ne you loved​ them and meant​ it?
Ya

Is there​ anyon​e who doesn​'​t like you becau​se of somet​hing you didn'​t do?
What?

Do you like anyon​e?​
I like Obama.

Have you kisse​d anyon​e on the lips withi​n the past 24 hours​?​
Ya

Are you curre​ntly jealo​us of anyth​ing?​
I'm always jealous of something, usually someone's shoes.

What were you doing​ at 8:00 this morni​ng?​
Taking a shit on your mom's stuff.

What is your broth​er'​s name?​
I don't have one.

So what do you want for your birth​day?​
CHANGE. And money.

Do you smile​ a lot?
Yes

Ever get a blood​y nose?​
Not since I was little.

Would​ you moon an old man for $50?
Hell yes.

Have you ever done somet​hing outra​geous​ly dumb?​
Yeah, mooning an old guy for $50.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conve​rsati​on with?​
No.

How did you and your numbe​r 1 becom​e frien​ds?​
Obama? Through hope.

Have you told anybo​dy you loved​ them today​?​
Ya

Did you speak​ to your mothe​r today​ ?
Ya

What did you do today​ ?
Go to Target.

Do you have plans​ for tomor​row?​
School, volunteering.

What shirt​ are you weari​ng?​
Drew's Sherwood shirt.

Sleep​ on your back or stoma​ch?​
Back

Is the last perso​n you kisse​d proba​bly also the next?​
Yesss

Have you ever liked​ someo​ne older​ than you?
Anderson Cooper.

How old will you be in 2010?​
22

Are you a jealo​us perso​n?​
Yes

Are you sarca​stic?​
Very.

How many pillo​ws are on your bed?
5

How did you get your last bruis​e?​
I don't know, rape.

Do you have a best frien​d?​
Nope.

Do you have any sibli​ngs?​
Unfortunately.

What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​
Nothing.

Have you ever made anyon​e laugh​ when they were cryin​g ?
Yep.

Are peopl​e annoy​ing?​
Oh yes.

Do you crack​ your knuck​les?​
When they hurt.

Has anyon​e told you they misse​d you latel​y?​
Yep.

Is anyon​e on your bad side right​ now?
Yeppp

What is the last thing​ you did befor​e you went to bed last night​ ?
Watched "It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia".. which is what I'm about to do again.

Have you ever made a diffe​rence​ in someo​nes life?​
I guess.

Whats​ the last compl​iment​ you recie​ved?​
"I bet you don't look bad" via text.

The Jeffrey Campbell shoes I wanted are on sale for $60. I couldn't help it, I bought them, and they are on their way to my apartment. I realized I didn't budget in the money that Drew owes me for his books, so I have an extra $200. I'm going to use that for the shoes and save the rest, also Xmas is coming up, so that's kind of like a payday. And I have a theory that maybe if I have a really cute outfit on, people will throw money at me.

I voted, and everyone reading this needs to too. Suzette and I voted together, it was like Xmas. Wish I could do it twice. I'm volunteering all next week with the UCF Democrats to kidnap and throw people in the Obama shuttles to go early vote. Everyone I met from the club were ridiculously motivating, and I feel so lazy. Hopefully Suzette and I can volunteer at the same time, and use our sex appeal to get votes. I will prostitute myself for change.

They had an Adult Swim Fair at school yesterday. I got tons of free stuff. Speaking of free stuff, Drew and I are going to the homecoming concert. Dashboard Confessional and Panic at the Disco, guilty pleasure night. I guess we got the last batch of free tickets, because no one else could get any. I didn't want anyone else to come anyways : ]

My dad got back from China last night. I was very excited to see him. Him and Drew had some bonding time in the car, and Drew followed through with all the Chinese etiquette very well. He brought me back a pretty neat dress. That will look good with my new shoes.

Peace.

Edit//I had to call to ask about something for my shoe order, and I got the last pair of the teal shoes! YESSSSS. Good thing I didn't wait longer.

Also my parents got this anti-Obama flyer in the mail. It said something about how Obama will be the most anti-gun president in history. ....? Good.

People that have everything just keep wanting more.
The only slightly, very tiny logical reason that I can see someone voting for Mccain/Palin (religion is not logical) is so they can have more. Everyone wants things they can't or don't already have. People that have it all, just want more. There are families out there that can't afford food, but people are more concerned that they can't afford a fucking space ship. No I did not just realize this, but it has suddenly come to my attention that this is all the world is about.

People that have nothing want everything.
People that have everything still keep trying to have everything.

Do things make me happy? Yes.
Can I live without my things? ...maybe.
So am I being hypocritical? Probably.

I guess the difference is, I would be more than happy if I didn't have to worry about rent and bills, but there are others that aren't happy unless they have a 10,000 square foot house and some hispanic lady living in their house to fold shit. It seems like some people's goals are never ending, they are always reaching higher. I'm going to reach low. I'm completely happy with being middle-class forever. I just want to be able to be comfortable, satisfied, and happy about it.

*This post does not apply to how unhappy I will be if those Jeffrey Campbell shoes sell out in my size.